First of all I'd like to thank those who've recently watched me! I'm honored really!
You guys are the best. It makes me really happy inside to know that people like my art.
But yeah onto other things, I don't really post journals like I used to anymore but my previous one was a bit too old so I decided to make this post since it's kind of important.
My sister is taking the laptop I've been using for a while now off to college with her therefore meaning I won't be able to draw, listen to music, go tumblring and all of that as much. p Ap;; it makes me so depressed. ahh.. OTL I still need to finish requests and commissions and all of that too because I've been working so hard to practice. But now.. I can't even draw on my tablet so I'm just left with my sketchbook now. I mean sure I can go on the desktop but it's not the same when the desktop isn't in your room and you can't look at things like "BL" by yourself. *coughs* It's not fair I tell you. I mean as a graphic designer, you need a computer and now that it's gonna be taken away from me, I'll be at a huge disadvantage. I'm not even an official graphic designer but I went to school and have a degree on it. I just haven't put it to good use since I can't find a job relating to it. So right now I'm just looking for some regular part-time job so I can get experience. Cuz lord knows.. I really need it. I'm pretty anti-social and dealing with people is not what I want to do but I'm gonna have to if I want to survive in the world.
But you know what else? My sister's bf bought her a new a laptop a few months ago just so that she can take it to college with her later. It gave me hope that she didn't really have to take this one with her. But then it turns out he wanted to keep it for gaming and stuff...... lkfad;f that made me really upset. I mean I shouldn't be talking since he was the one that bought it but still! It's like my sister has taken everything away from me. Both him and her. I know I should be happy for her but.. I have conflicted feelings. *sighs*
idk she's also taking the printer which doesn't make things any better since I used that printer to print stuff for artist alley things for conventions. =A= I still want to make keychains, stickers and stuff but that's gonna be for a while...
I guess I should go on and do something with my life. Like actually go and clean up my room since it's been messy for months and go on an actual job hunt with my mom or something. Maybe that will be for the best. But it still hurts. I don't want to be apart from my internet friends. I just want to be happy and be in my own little world where nothing makes me hurt or depressed. My family is depressing enough as it is with my mom and dad always arguing with each other. ehhh *tearsup* I won't be surprised when they actually divorce each other when my youngest sister graduates high school.
The bright side of all of this, my friend has this external hard drive that holds a lot of data so I put all of my stuff that was on my computer onto there. So it's not a complete loss I guess. I just need to get a new laptop somehow.. or have my sister get a newer one so I can get this one back.
And to those who read this, thank you for taking the time to put up with my little rant. I usually never talk on here when I do decide to, it's for a good reason. Also makes me wonder which of my old friends are still on here.
But yeah! I'll do my best to draw stuff and upload when I can. I realized that I have to push myself if I want certain things in life. Wish me luck!